I haven't written in a long time ... but I'm going to do an entry that's kinda deep and meaningfull, and has been on my mind for the past few days...
My friends. My friends mean the world to me. I honestly have no idea where I'd be without them. They've kept me alive and helped me achieve things I never thought I could. The thought of that in a year and a half there's a chance I may never see you guys again, makes me want to die. So this ... this is a thank-you to everyone, just incase I don't have time to tell you in person. Sorry if some are repetitive and they're in no particular order ... so don't be offended by your placing.
~* Katie *~ Best friends for 13 years. And things will never change. We have so many memories together. You're one of the friends I know I'll still be in strong contact with until the day I die. We called eachother at least once a week, even when we weren't going to the same schools. I love you so much, and never change. And don't worry, the man will come around. I know. It's me. :wink:
~* Meagan *~ I met you in grade 9 English, and we were "homework buddies". It started from there, and it's grown. SUM 41, Nickelback, Backstreet's Back, the random get-togethers, those are memories I will have forever. Your friendship and caring have meant alot to me and I hope that in some way ... I can return the favour. Love ya Bitch!
~* Matt *~ Another best friend since junior kindergarten. I remember you playing air guitar to O Canada beside Mrs. Green. Classic 8)... My first crush ... now my big brother. I feel so comfortable and safe around you. I always have, that's an amazing quality (among many) which you should never lose. Love ya Matt! *hug*
~* Eric *~ What can I say? Lickandtaffleidywannersun nerfef. You're crazy and hilarious and oh - so -great. Like... Mmmm mmm good. lol. You have great talent in many forms. Meeting you in grade 9 was probably one of the greatest moments of my life. I'm glad we've become such good friends, and I hope this won't change. Love ya Hoob!
~* Mal *~ We never really met until this year ... but I am so glad we did! We've confided in eachother a lot over the past few months, and it's helped me and (I think) you a lot. If it wasn't for you on New - Years Eve, I wouldn't be alive here, typing this. So thank you so much. Never change. Ever. Love ya hun!
~* Geoff *~ I know now what you truly think of me, so I'm not going to go proclaiming that we're friends. 'Cause I know you don't want to be. So I'm going to thank you for the times you given me. Thank you for the friendship and love you gave me, even if it was for a short period of time. Even though you don't want it, know that someone out there cares about you. Bye
~* Sarah *~ Oh man Sarah. "STOP ALL THE DOWNLOADING!!" You're a great friend. As you stay up with me on MSN, keeping me company, our friendship grows stronger. We've both had our ups and downs together, and comforted eachother when need-be. Thanks soooo much for everything (yes, even the pizza). Love ya Sarah!
~* Chris *~ "Hey!! You're the window kid!!". From grade 1 bus crush, to Tempest to Twelfth Night. You've always been there to make me laugh and to offer a shoulder to cry on. Perhaps one day, our timing will work out. But either way, thanks for being there for me. Especially when it's gotten you in trouble. Zippo kids for life! Love ya!
~* Dawn *~ Boonie Chicks! We had our differences in the past, but now is what matters. You're such a tough kid, and you don't get nearly as much credit as you deserve, and that INCLUDES from yourself! You're going places girl. One day, I will walk into your sports bar, and I'll say to my fellow unemployed friends, "Hey! I went to school with this girl! Maybe I can borrow some cash!". But hopefully we'll still be good friends, so you can lend me your money from being famous anyway! I kid, I kid. Anyway, keep on truckin' girl. We'll make it! Love ya!
~* Ian *~ Senior kindergarten. What a year. Heck, it's been quite the 12 years! I'm so glad that we're still friends. And I've especially enjoyed becoming better friends with you over the past 5 days. One day, we'll have a bit more freedom. You said in the car tonight that you have no idea what you're going to do with your life. Well ... I know for a fact, that whatever it is that you set your heart on doing, it's going to be done, and it's going to be done incredibly! You're such a loving, dedicated hardworking individual. I'm honoured to be able to call you one of my best friends, and I hope that never changes. Love ya!
~* Corey *~ Hey bud! Grade 7 ex's! You're a blast Corey, especially when you're drunk ... or crippled ... or usually both. lol. You're awesome. Always so happy just to make it to school alive! (Especially when you rollerblade there!) We went to church as kids *laughs to herself* and we've stayed friends all through school. Thanks for being there for me ... and remember ... BELFOUR SUCKS!! lol, love ya!
~* Jon *~ Another ex from grade 7! But bowling buddies for life! You brighten up my Saturday mornings. That phone call a few weeks ago meant a lot to me. I will never forget that gesture. Thank you so much for being there, "peer mentoring" me almost, through some tough stuff. Love ya!
~* Becky *~ Oh man, what can I say? Will I be Becky's Insight successor? lol. We are so much alike but we mix so well! I'm so glad I've met you. I would never have been able to make the cake with you!! You are honeslty one of the happiest, craziest people I have ever met! I love you so much, and know that I'm always here for you!!
~* Steve *~ Chewy!! You're awesome and oh so tough! Cancer has been a real bitch to you, but you've still made it through everything. You were in my thoughts every day while you were sick, and you're still there, but in a better way. I hope that I can in someway measure up to what a good friend you've been to me. Know that you will always have a friend in me. Love ya!
~* Shane *~ Strip sock poker! Man, you coulda had me! lol. Oh well. You've been great. Each class I have with you is always an adventure. You're a sensitive guy who cares about people, and believe me, the girls like that :wink:. When you've made it big one day, I'll be able to say, "I was his bands original groupie!! .... minus the sex!" lol but that could alllll change :wink: lol. Thanks for being there. You've kept me sane during a lot of crap. Love ya!
~* Arnprurr Matt *~ Man, you're hillarious! Those weekly phone calls must be killer on your phone bill! So plus +100 points for you. Though we still have a lot to know about eachother, we've bonded, in a way I never thought I could. RPGina! Thanks for being there to make me laugh and to offer help when I need it. Keep your heaad high and laughing! It'll keep the RPG's away! Love ya!
~* Debra *~ What can I say about the Debra? 8:06!! You're absoloutely incredible! You're probably one of the greatest multi-taskers of all time! And yet you never get stressed. When you're pissed, you're usually pissed with me *coughMr.Mocough*. You've been there to boost be when I'm down and you've even opened your home to me if I ever need it. I look forward to fringe, One Acts, the cottage party, weekly planning get-togethers,and especially Ananda! Love ya Deb!
~* Ben *~ My mom in bed last night! Oh geez. I'm ever so glad we met. You in your happy little Mario shirt. I remember it perfectly. Then you ended up watching me sleep later that night. :? lol. Our Ouija parties are always fun and John Malkovich has strengthened our friendship! Once I get my G2, we won't have to wait 2 months to see eachother. I love you Ben!!
~* Andrew *~ You. You are one of the most random people I know. And that is not a bad thing! You always seem to find a way to cheer everyone up. You open your house to litterally everyone, and you never question us. You've had an extremely positive influence on me and everyone else. Always be as happy as you are! Love ya!
~* Jade *~ Hey girl. We've gone through some good and bad times together. I'm glad you've always been there for me. You always make me laugh oh and thanks for attempting to help me on the RAT! lol! I know this is gonna sound cliche, but, "No guy is worth your tears." Keep your head high, and keep laughing that laugh I love. Love ya!
~* Mandy *~ It's da Manday .... hokay. lol. You're crazy! You're hillarious and oh so strong! In more ways than one. You're a tough cookie, and even when you're having the crappiest day, you still manage to somehow cheer some of your friends up. You're an awesome friend and I'm glad I met you (again) this year. And if you ever need a place to stay, I have an extra room. Love ya lots!
Well that's all I have time for right now, I'll continue later.
I love every single one of you so much. Never change. Ever. I wish I could come close to measuring up to what awesome, and influential friends you've been to me. You've shaped me. I love you all so much, especially for putting up with me. For those of you who know what I did two weeks ago, I'm sorry, and for those of you who don't, go down about 3 blogs and read. You'll find out. I wanna run to all of your houses and give you each a hug right now, but I can't so I'll give an extra big one next time I see you.
Friday, Becky slept over. We went to bed at about 4:30! Tres fun. Her cake terrifies me :lol: She came to bowling and man I sucked. I have no clue why. Worst week in about two months, I crossed about a 528, when I usually at least cross a 600. Oh well, I'll make it up next week.
Becky went for a "walk" (walk, meaning smoke) while I was bowling and she ended up buying me a doughnut from Tom Horton's. ^^ Thanks Becky! The sad thing is, is that we already told her that we were going there after bowling, before we took her home. Ah well. T'was funny.
After the ride to Kanata, I picked Carl up, followed closely by Geoff. He forgot I had asked him to have his video camera for our project, so I stood in the doorway as his dad explained how the camera worked and stuff.
We got to my house at about 12:00. I showed them my pets first. Geoff had met Indy and Hillary, but Carl hadn't and neither of them had met Smirk. But I want to re-name her, and here's why:
One day, my mom and dad were in the downstairs bathroom trying to read my dad's pager under the light. My dad's friend Darryl was standing in the back porch, outside the bathroom, with the laundry room/area to his left. My dad looked up to see something fly right by Darryl's head, almost hitting him square in the face. They looked down to see Smirk, looking kind of confused. My kitten had gone down the laundry shoot! Sooo funny! And for that, I want to re-name her Crash. :)
Anyway, so after snacking on grapes, peanuts and bagel bites, we finished the rough idea of the script. This was at about 1:30. We then decided where we would shoot and set up the camera. lol. I'm not going to say what the movie looks like, because for those of you who are going to see it tomorrow, it'll ruin it. Let me just say, it's very tacky!! :roll::lol:
After we finished, we all piled into the car, and dropped Carl off at Walter Baker for his Bronze Cross lesson. After that, we dropped Geoff off so he could leave the video camera at his place. He ended up having a new pair of pants thrust into him by his mother, so he had to try them on. I didn't think it would take him THAT long to change his shirt! lol
My mom drove us to the Rogers Video on Woodroffe, and we met up with Sarah. After debating over which movie to rent, we ended up not renting it. lol. Before we left, I asked for an application form, but they were out. Shtinky. Oh well.
Sarah's mom picked us up outside and we clambered in and headed for Pizza Hut. The new fern got to ride shotgun! No fair! lol. Yeah, by the way, Sarah's mom is freaking amazing! Honestly! Geoff's mom and Sarah's mom tie for nicest and coolest mothers!
We went upstairs and joined Sarah's sister Steph and their friend Dan in Steph's room. He’s so cool! He has an official Indiana Jones hat!! lol. They played Soul Calabur for a while, while at random intervals, Geoff would dart from the room trying to find Sarah's teddy to un-innocentfy it and Sarah's mom would pop in with food.
After a while, we made our way to Sarah's room, and watched some flash and mpgs on her computer. Oh yeah!!
[u]Quotes of the Day:[/u] "Hey kids! I'm a computer!" "Stop all the downloading!!" "Aw hell no, what up dog?" "Woah I'm going so fast, AW FUCK!!" " 'Do you know my dad?' 'Ooooooooooooooooooooohhh ' "
lol. Go GI Joe rip-off things! Yeah, by the way, those aren't in order. lol. So funny!
While looking up some more of the GI Joe things, we somehow blew a fuse! And only in the upstairs part of the house. Oh well, we lit candles and had tonnes of fun!
We all sat on Sarah's bed, and after settling down a bit, we tried to play Ouija. We think that Dan kinda pissed the spirit off, so we just gave up.
We ended up all lying down, intertwined with each other. We played truth for about and hour and a half, and then went to dare. I can't say anything that happened though, 'cause nothing is to leave that circle. It was fun! And enlightening. We are SO doing that again people!
Today I went to work. It was hella-busy. but I made about $6 in tips. At 5:00, mom picked me up, and we went to Swiss Chalet for supper. Our server was soooo slow, it took us an hour and a half to eat! It usually takes about 45 minutes. Whatever, my mom learnt what the term "eye candy" means. She asked who my eye candies at school are. I told her a few (all people she doesn’t know) but I kept my main eye candy to myself. And yes, I plan to keep it that way!
Now we're watching [i]Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone[/i] and I'm entering/checking blogs.
This weekend turned out to be pretty awesome! I just don't want to go back to school! Oh well.
OMG!! WE MADE REGIONALS!! Sears fest is going to Oshawa!! This is great, I knew we'd win!!
Today, we went to the [i]Dead Sea Scrolls exhibit[/i] at the museum of civilization. We saw the Miya, IMAX film too. Was it interesting? Let's just say, by the end of the day, we were glad to get out of there. Oh, the Duser made question sheets for us to fill out (*snores* so long sir!) and it said Shalom! on the top! Sarah and I were like "Where's Mandy and Jade?!". lol.
While we were there on free time, Eric and Davina kept slipping away from our group of people, so I was usually the one to pursue them. One time, I was on the 3rd floor and they were on the 2nd. I yelled "Eric!" He looks up, screams and headed towards the elevator, with Davina at his heels. I run down a long corridor, turn the corner and press the elevator button. I could hear them in the elevator, and they knew they were going up where I was. At this point I was a little tired, so I put both of my arms up on either side of the wall just on the outside of the elevator door. Now I heard a little *ding* so I looked up to opening doors. What I see is this: Eric and Davina kind of cowering on either side of the elevator, looking at the door on the other side (it was one of the elevators with doors on both sides) which was very shiny, so I saw my refection perfectly, and I looked really homicidal. They screamed. It was hilarious!
Once I got back to school, I went to the basement, where I was greeted by Becky, jumping on me ad we fall to the ground. I always damage my knees when I'm with her :roll: . Oh well. We switch shirts in the middle of the hallway (my Mr. Sparkle for her Insight shirt), and then I go into the last 10 minutes of my drama class. I sit down and Mr. Mo looks at my shirt, then looks at Geoff’s. Then back at mine again, then he just shook his head. It was funny.
At about 2:30, Chris, Becky and I get on the 116 and headed for Baseline, then to Rideau. On the way there was much discussion over Insight. Yes, I know, I'm an Insight whore. lol. It mostly revolved around Erin vs. Jill. I have yet to meet Erin, but I know that I really liked Jill. Not like my opinion matters, but people say it does, so whatever!
We went downtown, and Becky bought us Bubble Tea. I didn't like it too much, and neither did Chris, but whatever floats your boat right? Some old dude kept talking to us in the restaurant. When Chris got up to get spoons, he said, "Hey big-head!" and he went on about Chris' hair, people on the street and cops. That’s all we could really make out. It was funny all the same though. That place had HUGE bowls of soup too! But the noodles are slippery little suckers ...
After that, I registered at Money Mart, 'cause there wasn't a TD bank (bank, not a bank machiene, bank) downtown within reasonable walking distance. So I cashed my cheque then we headed for Rock Junction. I love that store. I bought new ear rings, Becky bought 9 pins saying "Masturbate", "Sorry I missed church, I was too busy studying witchcraft and becoming a lesbian", "I'd rather be worshiping Satan", "Hello, my name is Satan", "Drama Queen", "You're a naughty boy, go to my room!", "Plays with self", "Have a nice death". The last two are on happy faces. They're great! She spent $20 on pins. Crazay shit. Chris bought 4 pins saying, "Hello, my name is Satan", "Because you're a fucking moron (or idiot, I don't remember)" "Orgasm Donor", and "You're a naughty girl, go to my room!". The fact that I remembered those all off the top of my head is sad. Oh well. lol. 8)
The play we went to see at Canterbury was incredible! The sets, the costumes, the story, the acting, everything was awesome! If you have a chance, go see it tomorrow. It's called "Picnic at Hanging Rock." It's $8.00, for students at least.
After the play, my mom drove Chris home, then Becky to my place. We baked a cake while watching Pirates of the Carribean. This time the icing is purple and there's a face on it. I didn't make the face, Becky did! lol
Right now we're watching Road to Perdition. Becky is mesmerized. I'm going to go write some Religions script or something so we know what we're doing tomorrow.
It has come to my attention that some people seem to believe that I enjoy being depressed. Well, you’re wrong. Dead wrong. And to prove it to you, I’m turning over a new leaf.
From now on, I will do my best to put on a happy face. And when I can’t I’ll take a walk. It’s not fair to my friends to do what I’ve been doing. I’m sorry.
Anyway, now for the update... [LINE] The last time I entered a REAL blog was ... woah. Last Monday. Well here we go ...
Sears fest was on Tuesday, and it was awesome! Other than some stupid punk kids who tried to prove how cool they are by making complete jackasses of themselves, everything went, “ ... as smooth as can be Bob.” Sorry, but it’s fun to quote the play XD.
I don’t really remember what happened on Wednesday. But Thursday was great! There was a Sears rehearsal after school, and Becky was there. She stayed after the Insight show so she could watch the Air Bandz. After rehearsal, I went out into the hallway and I saw Becky there. Now she was posing as Megan’s cousin, because this was strictly a family affair. I noticed that they both were wearing their Insight shirts, and I didn’t think that it would be too convincing. I told Becky this, she looked at me for a second, then cried, “LET’S SWITCH SHIRTS!”. So we ran up to the nearest bathroom and switched shirts. She got to wear my Mr. Sparkle T-shirt, and I (finally) got to wear an Insight T-shirt. Hopefully I’ll have one of my own next year.
We all made our way over to the Harvey’s and Pizza Pizza, I deposited a check into the bank machine (more on that later) and then I went and bought pizza and then grapes from Loeb. After we chowed down, we got ready. We practiced Time Warp a couple more times, and then we waited for our call. Our performance was AWESOME!!
After our show, before they announced the winners, there was a little game to figure out “Who has the best Mop in the School?”. By mop, they mean hair. Chris got chosen from the crowd by the MC’s, and a whole bunch of other people went up. They had to shake their heads and show off their mop. In the end, Georgia won, and if you know Georgia, you know why she won.
In the end, WE WON AIR BANDZ!! lol. It was so great! And it turns out, that there’s regionals! So we have all the way until May to get it perfect beyond perfect! I hope we win, that’d be awesome!
After we cleaned up, Chris, Geoff, Mal, Becky, Sarah (I think) and if I missed anyone I’m sorry, and myself, wandered around until my mom came. I ended up driving Geoff, Mal, and Chris home.
The next day, nothing really happened. After school, I bused to Andrew’s and we got kicked out at about 6:30. We went to the Min - A - Mart (yes, Min - A - Mart) and after much contemplating, bought a frozen pizza and a McCain cake thingy. Once we got to his place, we actually watched the pizza cook (sad I know) and then watched Rocky Horror Picture Show. lol.
After I got home, my emotions finally came out. I cut myself for the first time that night. Five cuts. Not deep. But I still did it. I did it again on Saturday and Sunday. Less cuts but bigger. Jon noticed the cuts on Saturday morning and called me on Monday night. He talked to me for about 2 hours, just trying to get me to not do it again. But I did. But I haven’t cut myself since Monday. But oh hell, I wanted to.
I’m going to get off that topic incase a parental sees ...
Tuesday was the last day for rehearsals. It went really rough. Two run-throughs and there was a lot more line stumbling than usual. But they say that if the dress rehearsal sucks, your show will be amazing! Which it was!
Yesterday, I had math, then at 9:00, Mal and I headed down to the foyer. We took the taxi to SRB and made our way to the auditorium. We rehearsed for 2 hours and we then headed out for lunch at about 11:45. We spent 5 hours at lunch! And I only ordered an iced tea! We stayed there and played this little interactive trivia game. Very fun. Ms. Stewart gave us all this little framed publicity poster with a card. I was so sweet! I had gone over to Loeb to see if I could buy any flowers for the cast and crew. I could, but MY CHECK HADN’T GONE THROUGH YET!!
We made our way back to SRB for about 5:15. We played Cranium in the green room for about an hour and made our way back into the auditorium for 7:00 and watched the first show. It was Lester B. Pearson, and they weren’t bad, but they weren’t great either. I missed the second show ‘cause I went back with the guys to direct them in a warm up.
QUOTE OF THE DAY: “Dear moon, I am stuck in the ozone. Please help.” - Ari.
He said that while warming up, FOR NO REASON! It was amazing! Ari always has the best quotes.
Anyway, the show was 10 times more amazing than the show at school. High energy, and everything! Ahhh good times.
A lot of MHS people were there. Mr. Osterer, Mr. Mo, Debra’s mom (mommy), Geoff’s mom and dad, and their friends, Ari’s mom and dad, his brother and I think his grandparents too. We had the most people, we had the loudest cheers and everything! And the adjudicator loved the show too. Any points she had for improvements were very small and nit-picky because there was nothing to really improve on! :D
Anyway, today nothing happened. Seriously. I really can’t think of anything funny that happened during school. Becky called me at 5:00ish. She discovered that it’s a long-distance call to my house. Stupid I know. She made me go on the computer to continue talking. She left for the bathroom, so I sang her a song. Something like:
Oh Becky, you left me for some smelly pee-machine, And now I'm busy talking to me, oh Becky I'm siting here, popping my blisters Cause I didn't get my shoes from the shoe-making sisters!! Oh Becky ...
Do you like the song? I made it up on the spot. 8)
I think Becky is going to sleep over at my house after the play we go see tomorrow night, which shall prove to be interesting. lol. And we're going to switch shirts again!! :P
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I haven't written in a long time ... but I'm going to do an entry that's kinda deep and meaningfull, and has been on my mind for the past few days...