First off, Mal did not come to school. Which was sad. I was told by several people that she was taking a "personal day" due to the fear that if she came to school, she'd hurt someone.
What happened was that over the weekend, a little thing came up over these blogs we have here. Chris, in response to an entry from Sarah stated that he doesn't like Colin, Mal's boyfriend. He continued on that topic in his blog calling him an asshole I believe. This upset Mal, and rightfully so. She ended up cutting herself again. :cry:
The worst part of this is the fact that none of this was ever intended to happen. Chris stated the whole "I don't like Colin" bit in order to help Sarah feel better (she cut herself as well). He wrote about it in his blog, following our groups philosophy of, "Don't care who reads your blogs, it's your journal and it's supposed to be a therapudic thing. Don't filter anything out. People will find out eventually anyway". And also I don't think he meant it to come out the way it did. Chris wouldn't harm a fly.
But I also believe that Mal is justified in her anger. You shouldn't have to find out that your ex bf thinks your current bf is an asshole through a journal. She called him last night at about 11:30 and bitched at him for half an hour. I haven't talked to Chris about any of this, so I have no idea how he felt about that, but it was kinda theraputic for Mal.
Also if you read her entry from today, you'll see her praising her friends. This afternoons issue was that in her little paragraph about Jade, some people think Mal was calling Jade a slut. Check for yourself.
[i]Honey, you know I love you, right? And I'm sure right now, these words will sting deeper than anything you've ever heard. But you are standing on dangerous ground. I know this is what you think you want, but hun deep inside you are so much like me, I can feel your pain. You can't live like this. Just because he can walk, he's a virgin, or he's got a dick the size of a god, doesn't mean it's good reason to jump in the sack. One of these days you're going to come across a guy who may seem alright, and you'll see he's not. If all they want is a couple of jumps in the hay, they obviously don't respect you enough to care. I can't tell you how to live, but I can tell you, that the longer you live like this, the less respect you are getting from your friends.[/i]
Now I dunno if I'm dense, or maybe it's just because I know Mal personally, but I do not think calling Jade a slut was what she intended on doing. Mal is the type of person who would rather say what she felt to the persons face rather than have them hear it through the grape vine.
Also, Jade, on MSN this afternoon, made the decision to not hang out with our group of friends anymore.
[i]Jade: i'm just done with it all Me: with all what Jade: everyone. i'm not hanging with people who think this about me and don't tell me to my face they have to say it behind my back and thats wrong. i'm just done with everything and everyone[/i]
Great I have just discovered that Mal is no longer going to enter into her blog.
[i]Well ladies, and gentlemen, it's been fun. I've had a blast sharing every detail of my life with you fine people. But it's been pointed out to me, that they're evil. They truly are. They're tearing everyone up inside. And so I'm leaving you now, never to write again. Have fun.[/i]
Oi. :(
Jade brought it to my attention this morning (before her decision was made) that since our group has been getting in such arguments lately, that maybe we're just spending too much time together. And I think I agree. There are points during the week, where everyone would have been at Andrew's after school every day.
I just hope that we can hold everything together. To have a group of friends come crashing down is such a terrible thing, and I don't ever want to go through it again. (It happened a few years ago to me.) All of my friends mean so much to me, and each of them has something I love about them. I couldn't bare for us all to lose contact with each other. :(
Other than that, today was pretty uneventful. I got my iFlurtz matchmaker thing at lunch today and guess who my #1 match is! Geoff.:!: :shock: :( We filled the thing out while we were still going out too. Oi. When I told him he laughed. Hard. That's what hurt. I damned near cried when I saw his name on the paper, and when he laughed it was like ice cold daggers being sent through me. It was such a mocking laugh. I don't think he meant for it to be the way I'm taking it, but hey, it's me and I'm stupid.
Ehh, the rest of the day was uneventful. I did make copper today in chem though. lol. After school I talked about most of the preceding issues online, talked to Katie on the phone, and searched the web for some valentines I can use. Hey, I'm cheap. Do you realise that I have 94 valentines to give out?? 94!! And I have to print all of these off too! I'll be busy for the evening, that’s for sure. And if my cough gets any worse, I may stay home tomorrow. A perfect chance to finish that.
Anyway, I think I should start printing off those valentines.
ttfn
-=blacknaiad=-
P.S. If anyone wishes to keep in touch with Mal (Malibu87) just message me, and I have her add you onto MSN or something.
Well today proved to be interesting.